Despair is a Choice
 
Evil is the pain
Which courses through your each and every vein
 
It takes over as you lose control of all
Looking to darkness as a comfortable place to fall
 
Everything inside pulling twisting and eating you alive
As a hope of no more thought can make you thrive
 
Giving in to giving up is an option you can not choose
For self preservation and some type of hope is what must not lose
 
So allowed are the things from which you're sure to be destroyed
When a snap decision is what you painfully avoid
 
Answers don't seem to come easy or possibly at all
So you sit lost in emotional turmoil hoping with all that's left of your
heart you will get that call
 
The one from god the one to stop the hurt the one that will give
The one that will turn things around and have you wanting to really live
 
 
Knowing it wont happen takes you back to the start
What did happen to that person who stole your heart
 
Wondering why you have lost a war a battle and a fight
You never knew you were in 'cause you never saw the light
 
Hopefully there is a future tied up in all this pain
For I know I will not make it through any part of this again